I’m just sick of everything that’s going on in my life . I feel like i’ma lose my boyfriend and i’ve lost my “friends” .. Like I can’t even fake happiness anymore that’s how depressed I am . Like I feel like me and ben are just drifting apart, I don’t know why I expected so much from a relationship at a young age . I just felt different about him than any other guy . I hate love it feels like it never wants to be good to me . And with my friends it’s like I care more about them than they do me . Like I feel like none of them care enough about me like I do them . I do the most for them and get nothing in return and i’m not lookin’ for a handout i’m sayin’ why can’t someone ask how I feel or how i’m doing instead of constantly coming to me with their problems . But i’m such a caring person that I put aside my feelings for them . I’m just smoking my feelings away . Like right now the weed is taking away my problems right now . Like I just wanna be blowed for the night .